For whom do we pray?

My Mom is a wonderful person. Probably the most wonderful person I have ever met. Most people who know her will agree. There is hardly anyone who doesn't like her. She simply charms everyone with her humor, her sensitivity, and her thoughtfulness. She really touches people and can find beauty in almost everything.

Before I went on my last trip to Merryland, she was admitted to the hospital because of her blood condition. It felt odd to be so far away, but I called her every day. When she told a nurse, I would, the nurse responded: "No wonder, with such a nice mother." See, that's what I mean. Everybody immediately gets, that she will bring out the best in you.

Naturally things, that she would find beautiful, are showing up often along my way. And this journey was no exception, as I saw a magazine about beadwork that sported a beautiful necklace on the title with lily of the valley flowers. My mom likes the scent, she basks in spring green, and although she might never wear it I had the intention to pick up the beading needle again and tackle this very time consuming project some time around this fall.

Shortly before I headed back, she disclosed the diagnoses to me, which she had held back for almost 10 days as to spare me from all the worry. She is challenged by a lymphoma. It was a shock at first. The only thing I could to at that time was gathering more information from my cousin, who is specialized in oncology. I could console my mother with the good news, that it's a fairly well treatable kind and that the chemo would be so light that she could keep her hair.

After that I had the impulse to start on this necklace immediately, so that I could bring it as a present right now, instead of waiting for next Xmas. I bought the beads in Merryland and threaded and threaded and threaded, thinking of all these prayer shawls that some women would knit for loved ones, who undergo a difficult time. I knew it wouldn't change my mothers situation right away, but it made me fell active and thus less helpless.

This changed my mood, and I sometimes asked myself, if that necklace would be of as much benefit to my mother as it was to me. But then it dawned on me, that this project turned my vibration from feeling helples into feeling powerful, and with this hopeful vibration I was able to support my mother better than with the necklace in the first place. I could offer her comfort instead of being a fearful child that needs to be reassured.

Making ourselves feel good is obviously the best thing to do in order to be of service to others. ;-))) The necklace itself might not be that important after all.

Of course she will get the Lilies of the Valley anyway. LOL. I threaded every morning and every evening to have it ready by tomorrow when I will finally be able to see her.